Daoko's Corner

Thoughts.

2008-12-17T18:12:00.002+01:00

A wind gently caressing the ground.

Fall.

A season, of color and coldness.

So much beauty, The ripples on the water.

Created by the force of wind itself.

Leaves, flying around, creating beautiful patterns across the grass.

Should we call this a season of loneliness, a season, where people realize what may be inside them and the feelings they hide.

Is this a season of discoveries, where people, get to know who they really are.

Should we realize and accept all the feeling that we keep inside, that keep us war, are only there for just that cause, or will we get to the end that its the way its going to be, of how we feel towards someone.

Maybe this doesn't make any sense, maybe it wasn't intended to do such either, Maybe this is just a text, written by the mind of a thinker, wanting to write his thoughts down.

There are so much we can think about. So many things that we hide from ourselves and everyone else. Do we want them to listen. do we want them to understand?

Or is this just a battle against ourselves.

4 Seasons...

Summer, Fall, Winter and Spring.

Heat, Rain, Snow and Blossom.

Summer..

Where thr warmth, the sunlight, bring people together.

Fall...

When everything collapses..the depressing season...

Winter....

When one realizes how alone one are, making everything worse.

Spring....

When everything starts again, where we have learned from our experiences, When we do our best to find someone to be with throughout the year.

THoughts of a madman.

What do we have to depend on, what keeps our minds going, What makes us live, and want to live the life we are given.

Is it all just a choice, something that we choose ourself, that define who we are, shape us and control us.

Is it beauty or grotesque?

Religion, what is it?

Is it just another way of controlling the masses, keeping rebellion at stake?

BUt what if it fails, what if everything it protects us from triggers, will it cause chaos, Will it show everyone what we all are made off?

Does it spring our deeper thoughts, freedom to hour mind?

Nature, gives us life, make us live another day, show us what we fear, make us prevent the causes, the shaping of the fearful ways we have, let us protect you from what we create.

Save you.

You give us life, we take the life.

Stop all that madness, let us care for that lie, give it the care it deserve, It isn't just my world, its a world shared between a-lot of living creatures, we all have to learn to live together, care for each-other.

Its what is best for all of us, to learn how to cooperate, to share everything.

Its a Socialistic way, but its probably what’s best for all of us, all at the same terms and grounds, no upper or lower class.

Share alike I say, share alike.

ENd of it all.

Emptiness, loss of moments and thoughts.

Everything I once stood for, lost and gone, lost in the vast ocean of thoughts and minds.

Should i open myself up and share it al with the masses give up all my privacy, all my mysteries.

Tell all my lies, how many hearts I’ve broken by the words uttered, words always meant to not hurt. But in the end...they do.

Protecting a lie, keeping the hopes up..

HONESTY! WHERER DID YOU GO, WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME HERE, IM STANDING AT YOUR DOORSTEP, LET ME IN, TEACH ME YOUR WAYS, TEACH ME THE WAYS OF HONESTY.

Hahahhahahahha

Madness, Isn’t it all just madness, another way to be controlled, to give EVERYTHING AWAY

Isn't it just like a DISEASE, that ROTS us from the INSIDE OUT.

Leaving us with our empty and worthless shells.

Im alone, in the deepest pit of all, the darkness is surrounding me, No other soul in my vicinities...Heh

I once thought i saw the light, but it was just more pain and suffering caused by lies.

Why must it be so hard to find someone to trust these days.

Outside the door of trust, you have the people of the world, with all the pain around, it makes it hard to trust. and that is right, the loss of trust is a followup to this, its good and bad, people doesn't put in more trust into people. to keep themselves safe, but it also hurts them to not be trusted, its ALWAYS SO HARD, WHY MUST IT BE SO HARD!

PLEASE PEOPLE. LISTEN.

Waiting for the sun to awaken from its slumber, to awake and spread the warm light of a brand new day, fill our hearts with warmth.

Treasure the first moments of a brand new day.

What is better than waking up but the soft touches of the rays of the sun and a gentle kiss from the one you love over everything.å

Those first moments of a brand new day is what opens you up, declares your emotions into a shape, and a feeling.

Do we ever want to let moments like that pass? To let these things go unnoticed.

It is not worth such an ending. its worth the ending anyone, everything should get.

Its too late sometimes to just let everything go, and forget. Its never to late to realize mistake, to make your guild and hate turn into amazing feelings for someone you deeply love.

But what does all this feelings, all these thoughts create for someone that is alone, doesn't it just prepare or a long time of being alone, to be cold, wake up alone and just realize and just think of where everything went wrong.

What went wrong, where did one take that faulty step that ended up destroying something that could have turned out to be a life full of compassion instead of a life full of desertion.

Sunset..

Sunrise.

4 Seasons...

Summer, Fall, Winter and Spring.

Heat, Rain, Snow and Blossom.

Summer..

Where the warmth, the sunlight, bring people together.

Fall...

When everything collapses..the depressing season...

Winter....

When one realizes how alone one are, making everything worse.

Spring....

When everything starts again, where we have learned from our experiences, When we do our best to find someone to be with throughout the year.

Something that I’ve said once, but maybe its not always like that, maybe there is sometimes changes to everything, the time when you find someone or something that can make your throughts about this change,

Hopefully change the whole message with the 4 seasons, someone to be with through it all, through rain and dusk, and all kind of storms.

Someone to be with, to feel compassion and closeness the whole year around. Or maybe that is too much to ask.

But its maybe...probably to hard to find that person, to find a person that can be there through everything, someone that is always there, caring and listening.

To much to ask perhaps..But always something one can long for, something to hope for.

And A common mistake I notice from way to many during these days is on just how many focuses on the looks of people, not on how they are, how they act.

Too Few spend time to get to learn someone, Once you get to learn someone you will learn how they really are, how much they really care, how much they listen or just ho much they are in for their own gain.

Heh.

Its amazing how far into the mind you can get when you are concentrated, away from it all, not listening, not looking at the people around, when you are in your own world..

But maybe that is something that also destroys, being in your own world for too long, away from the voices from others..away from their faces, their smiles.

And..

Just notice how someone around you for so long, but always in the shade can move into the light, make you notice that person..and everything you have missed..everything you in the latter time now regret missing..

...Indescribable

Everything..Just everything about me indescribable..To sit here, open up my head, write just everything down, everything I one feel, what I think, just everything.

To be able to do such a thing, when its so hard to just walk up to someone and say such a simple thing as “Hi”, mabe all I am is just afraid, that Im afraid of doing anything wrong, or afraid of showing myself, showing that Im there. Its so hard, why is it so hard to just open up..why do I live in the shade, cant I take a step out, a step out where you are, where they are...where almost everyone are. Is it s hard to ...

to...

....

Obsession

2008-02-24T13:44:00.001+01:00

Friends.

What are those?

What do they have to do with Obsession?

Quite much actually, I have friends (wow... :P) But the problem is, Being obsessed with something, or someone, friends are easilly put aside.

Ill start of with a thing called "World Of Warcraft".

Im sure youve all heard about it(gee..how can you miss it when the geeks are all over it all of the time).
I was one of the geeks before I decided to let it go.
I felt how obsessed I was. "WoW" went over almost everything, I could barely speak with my friends when I was playing since i was to busy in the game playing. When I quit, sure I was still on the computer damn much, but I could go outside and be with friends, I could be on the computer chatting with friends without taking forever to reply. What I just counted up, is the opposite of what people I know that are obsessed, with what? Doesn't matter. They are the opposite to what I wrote, They play their game/they hang out with someone all the time, just leaving their friends hanging there.

Its scary really, if you think of it..
Just because someone is playing a game or is with someone, they cant spare some time for their friends because they are to busy with what they are doing.

I hate it..
I hate when something becomes so controlling over a person.
Friends that I have that play games, they cant even spare a moment for answering on a chat message due to their gaming. Its sick..

Same is it when it comes to real life...Scrapping real friends for a game or scrapping real friends when being together with someone...Spending time with friends is always a possibility, Dont leave your friends behind.

-Daoko

"Obsession...Putting your friends aside for it"

Heh

2008-01-27T22:36:00.001+01:00

Riight...Ill try to make this post short ..although it wont

Manliness

if I remember correctly, the 4 Important things with being manly was:

1. The size of your Paycheck
2. Not showing Emotions
3. Not being a Sissy
4. Not acting Female in any way

My comments on those things are:

1: The only reason that this thing about the paycheck is here is because of ALL THE GREEDY WOMEN out there

2.Not showing Emotions?...Wow, that man must be a total fucking idiot(excuse the language). But a man not showing his emotions, i doubt it would be very nice for a woman to have a man not showing any sign of happyness or joy at example their wedding...

3: Well...That one I quite agree with really, a man should be able to be there for example protecting his Woman

4: Not Acting female in any way?..

wow..So a man should NOT...i say NOT be UNDERSTANDING...Sound completely idiotic to me, I think it would be easier for the partner to be able to speak out with her partner and that he understand what she is feeling. Instead of her having to talk with one of her friends about her troubles..

I mean, in my personal opinion so does those 4 points describe..and read

"A TOTAL FUCKING IDIOT" (aka Dickhead, aka Man)

-Daoko

Locked in your jar.

2008-01-18T19:25:00.001+01:00

Jam!

Like strawberry.

Anyway.

Laying here in my bed (No I dont have a laptop, got myself a 32" TV on my birthday, its my new screen *grin*). So yea... 18 now, heh.

Lots of new horizons opening up, lots of new things I can get in trouble for doing, haha.

Was it really a gateway that opened, or am I just now more controlled by society?.

See.

My life has been a mess most of the time I think (...atleast I think so). Ive had my unstable moments, just as anyone else. Ive had my share of idiotic acts, just like anyone else. Gee, I dont feel that young as I actually am. I dont think that is strange at all. We all have our different views on "Maturity".

I know several that think they are mature, just because their body has evolved... Silly people. Maturity is much more than just how far your body has evolved. It is more of a process of an evolving mind. Getting deeper thoughts and views upon things.

But no, do not think I just see an evolved mind as the "Major" part of the mature nature. The physical and the mind is both major parts of it, but maturity is not reached without both parts..

haha.

-Daoko

Happy New Year

2008-01-02T13:48:00.001+01:00

Happy New Year

Yea yea, I know Im posting this 2 days late.

Not like I give a rat's ass but still. "Sorry"

So, the new year has started. Things are waiting for its death and there is things waiting to be born.

A new era has begun. or..something.

Waking up..Born.

Heh, Yesterday I encountered something strange with myself. I was just sitting by this computer as I mostly do, minding my own business, browsing through places like Joejoe and Neowin. When I got this strange feeling. That I missed someone that I had not spoken with over the net for about a year. It just struck me. like that. "snap!" and the feeling was there. So I decided to attempt to get hold of the person. I knew where to look, so I went there...And actually managed to get hold of her. After that, that day felt complete. Its quite awkward how feelings can just pop up like that. And dont come tell me that "Oh its just chemicals inside your body, hormones and stuff setting of reactions", Ive heard that Shit to many times. Sure, I know its true, But I want to believe that there actually is something else there, something deeper than just some chemicals.

-Dao

New Year is almost here..

2007-12-31T20:20:00.001+01:00

So

New year is almost here, Just getting closer and closer..

3 hours and 45 minutes left as I type this.
Geez

Time sure moves fast. But what can you do about it.(either die or stop caring about it).

New year. New Technology. New celebrations.

But the New Year Celebration Itself?.

Is it something to celebrate?

"WOOOHOOO were getting 1 year closer to Armageddon"

I mean, the world is screwed anyway. With the wars, Us humans consuming the earths resources and our way of polluting the nature and environment. We are killing this earth, our life source, faster and faster.

"Ooh you have such a negative view on things"

Sure! I might. But am I lying?
Not really.
But I'm surely not hoping that we will turn this world into a better place.
I think its to late.
We have done to much now, its to late to turn back and fix our mistakes.

"Time can cure anything"
Then time will cure this earth and kill humanity.

Over and out

-Daok

Cooperation.

2007-09-01T11:35:00.000+02:00

Well...
What can I say?

Arguments come up, arguments end, sometimes not on the good side of things.

Things may be brought up over and over again, still laying there like a haunting memory.
A thought, buried withing the dephts brought up again, causing anger,hatred,pain,laughter or whatever it did back then.

Now most arguments, Always end up with both sides gaining nothing of it. The different parts just decide to leave it since there is nothing to be seen from it.

Although

There is people that manage, manage to cooperate, manage to come up with a decision they both agree on that they both gain from.

Personally I try to see myself as one of those people, but its just that most of the time the one im argumenting with chooses not to cooperate. Wanting to go their own way.

When we come up to an solution in life, its because we want to help eatchother.
I want to help the people I argue with, Though sometimes it might seem that im doing it in a very hateful way, Im just doing it to make them realize, this is nothing for them, this is not something they were meant to do. And Life, it isnt a jolly time. Some things have to be learnt the hard way, just that way..

Choices.
The life is full of it, many choices. These choices are what makes us become who we are. Unique choices, made for the person. All the different answers and ways leads to a specific line. Our live, crawling out forming a massive web with the rest of humanity. Crossing others paths, taking a turn, changing someone from what we do. Love and Hate. Major factors in this major web. A choice can be done from what we like instead of what is most logical. Do not be fooled by the things we like, they might give us hell in the future...

-Daoko

Social

2007-08-01T13:37:00.000+02:00

About being social.

Nowadays, you see people walking around with their cellphones, laptops, or these small Hand computers.

I hear so many people complaining about chatting/texting instead of talking makes you unsocial?.

But, This is the new techology, let us use it?

Chatting through different IM's (MSN,Yahoo,AIM etc) or via Internet Relay Chats or even normal Forums. Those things does not make people unsocial. Its one of the new ways to be social!

We were given this oppertunity to use it, not just let it lay there and rot behind a bunch of porn. since thinking of the internet, thats probably the first thing people will realize that there is tons of. Internet consists probably over 50 ir not 60% of pornographic images,movies or written erotica. Anyway, enough strolling into the abyss. Back to the subject.

Being social nowadays isnt just Talking. Phoning,Chatting,Texting is being social in this world of ours.

-Daoko

Ugh.

2007-07-29T16:10:00.000+02:00

So, its only been like what, an hour and im already posting another little thing here.

Sitting here waiting for the server on wich I play my game on tend to get slightly boring so I'll share some stuff here now.

With the messed up world we have now, everything seems to go downwards.
Men are supposed to have 6 packs or 8 packs.
Women should be slim and look like walking skeletons.

Why?

Is the world just going for looks nowadays? (well the obvious answer is Yes!).

What happened to the simplicity of things?
What happened to the Mind,Soul and Most important things about being ourself.

Being Unique.

With the world as it is, it seems like people should look like they have been mass produced.
What is this bull?!

We shall not go for looks my fellow friends. The Mind and the Thoughts of the being is more important! Do not let Commercials and ads fool you! The most important thing about being us is inside of ourselves. Not on the inside!

Come on!
Think like this:

Girls...

Would you rather have a man that has an 8 pack but that drinks and beats you down all of the time, and spends 2 hours in the bathroom to fix his hair and "works late"

Than a man that might be slightly chubby, but that is devoted and loves you for who you really are?

and Men.

Would you rather have a girl that is thin like a stick,that demands you to buy stuff to her, and that goes around screwing with anyone possible since you dont "give her what she needs".

than a girl that is perhaps a little overweight, but has a heart of gold and that would never do anything to hurt you?

People! we have to think on the inside..

Feelings is more important than looks.

-Daoko

So...Its started

2007-07-29T14:33:00.000+02:00

Damn

Got to say it took me a while to finally start this thing.
But what do you have to say?

Live is full of choices and its up to every single one of us to do what we want to.
So I took this chance to start blogging, in this little blog of mine I will post all kinds of things, everything from idiotic messages on the helpdesk im active on or just my thoughts and theories considering all kinds of thing. People that will read this, I dont know..it will show up eventually what people wants to read my random rantings or whatever it now may be.

Thank you for reading.

-Daoko